I thought it would take me long to decide whether I would move or not. I will surely miss it here. I don't know when or if I'm still coming back.
Seven months of both good and bad memories here will forever be in my heart and mind. :)

Like my friends, it was a witness to my life, how I'd grown during those heart-breaking moments I have shared with you through this site. I owe a lot to this blog, because I know that if it were a person, it would most probably be screaming at me the whole time. Thank you blog, for your patience. :) Though I know that you didn't have a choice. ;) I love you.

As for my friends who know about this blog, those people who I have met in the blogoshere, and those of you who share the same passion, I would miss you as well. Moving feels like cutting our connection. But, don't worry, I would still be visiting your blogs and reading your stories. My tagboard is still active. I would still read the messages that you will leave. :)

But, right now, I'm on hiatus. Goodbye. ;)

Labels: LIFE, STARTING OVER, UNEXPECTED

What would you do, if someone you really love, passed away while you were halfway around the world?

One of my closest titas, passed away today. And up to now, I don't know the exact cause of her death. We were just told that she died because of a terrible sickness. I'm not sure, though I know that it has something to do with her heart. I knew that. Before we left for Abu Dhabi, I remember reading one of her text messages asking for financial help from our family because she was going to undergo surgery for her heart. And then, I remember reading another text message from my other tita(her sister) saying that the operation went well and they were really thankful for the money that we donated.

But now...she's gone. I wasn't even able to bond with her before I left the country. I wasn't able to visit the province before leaving because I was sick. I feel really bad because we're really close when we were young. She was in her teens while I was just learning to walk. She was with me all the time when I was young. She lived with us then.

I think the last time I saw her was also the last time I visited the province which was last year, last summer. I'm just really sad. She's still young. I think she's in her late twenties/early thirties. My mom broke the news while we were in the car, on the way to the grocery to buy food for their anniversary party tomorrow. I can remember the exact conversation:

Mommy: Dadaan pala tayo sa simbahan.

Me, Eunice and Edrick: Baket po?

Mommy: Kase magtitirik tayo ng... kandila.

Me: baket? * I was nervous, waiting for her next words. I knew that there was something wrong.*

Mommy: Wala na...si..Tita Grace niyo.

We all gasped. And then fell silent for the next minutes. I was staring outside the window. I wasn't able to speak. I just can't. I don't want to think that she's..not breathing anymore. I can't even cry.

I guess I'm just devastated. I prayed for her. I know that she's happy now, because she's with God and her mom (my lola's sister). I prayed for her loved-ones as well. It's going to be tough for them, now that she's not around anymore.

I just wish that this didn't happen while I was away. I want to see her for the last time. I want to be there. But as it is, I can't.

*This was supposed to be posted last night, but because of certain circumstances, I wasn't able to. To whoever is reading this, I hope that you can include her and our family in your prayers. Thank you. *

Labels: FAMILY, HEARTBREAK, LOST, UNEXPECTED

I watched the movie last Sunday, because I was curious. Haha. I've been playing its PS2 video game for almost a month now and I love it, even though it's really giving me bad headaches. So, one day, when I wasn't doing anything, I thought of watching the movie. And, it actually made me cry, especially at the last part. The part where the title card with the quote above was shown. I never knew that an animated movie would hit me hard. I was actually expecting its message to be more family-related. Well, I guess it is. But, it touched me in every way.

It made me feel guilty. I don't know why. Maybe because I knew that it was meant for me?But, whatever it is, I'm sure this wasn't a coincidence. After all, everything happens with and for a reason.

Anyway, I actually forgot the reason why I am writing this. All I'm saying is, I guess I'm just tired of this, and I really can't find the reasons why I'm hanging on, so I guess I'm just going to let it go. Why prolong the agony? Besides, I don't want this to ruin my life. Again.

I just really hope that this will be the last time that I'll be dealing with this. Like what Walt Disney said, we don't look backwards for very long. I guess that the whole movie was my cue.
And that actually made me smile. It gave me a spark of hope that maybe it's okay after all, that I'd be okay. Happiness is a choice after all. :) How can I not be happy with my life right now? I have every reason to. For one, I'm with my family. I have friends who still show and make me feel that they care even if we're thousands of miles apart. And that's enough, for now. :)

Labels: FEELINGS, HAPPINESS, LOVE, SUMMER, UNEXPECTED

Goodbye, Francis Magalona. :(

You will be missed. You have lived a great life. And you will be remembered forever.

Labels: HEARTBREAK, LOST, UNEXPECTED

"You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test.

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth.

He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself."


..perfect. Just perfect. I'm keeping my mouth shut. Some things are better off unsaid. You wouldn't want to hear this anyway.

Lyrics from Thinking of You by Katy Perry.

Labels: UNEXPECTED

EURA YUSTE is a seventeen-year old girl who loves ART and MUSIC. She thinks that blogging si not just a theraphy, it's her way of life. She values her family and friends more than herself. She is currently living in one of the hottest places in the world. But, loves MANILA to bits. Writing and fashion are her ways of expression. She hopes that her passion for PHOTOGRAPHY and EVENTS MANAGEMENT will help her pay the bills someday. Wanna knowmore?

I thought it would take me long to decide whether I would move or not. I will surely miss it here. I don't know when or if I'm still coming back.
Seven months of both good and bad memories here will forever be in my heart and mind. :)

Like my friends, it was a witness to my life, how I'd grown during those heart-breaking moments I have shared with you through this site. I owe a lot to this blog, because I know that if it were a person, it would most probably be screaming at me the whole time. Thank you blog, for your patience. :) Though I know that you didn't have a choice. ;) I love you.

As for my friends who know about this blog, those people who I have met in the blogoshere, and those of you who share the same passion, I would miss you as well. Moving feels like cutting our connection. But, don't worry, I would still be visiting your blogs and reading your stories. My tagboard is still active. I would still read the messages that you will leave. :)

But, right now, I'm on hiatus. Goodbye. ;)

Labels: LIFE, STARTING OVER, UNEXPECTED

What would you do, if someone you really love, passed away while you were halfway around the world?

One of my closest titas, passed away today. And up to now, I don't know the exact cause of her death. We were just told that she died because of a terrible sickness. I'm not sure, though I know that it has something to do with her heart. I knew that. Before we left for Abu Dhabi, I remember reading one of her text messages asking for financial help from our family because she was going to undergo surgery for her heart. And then, I remember reading another text message from my other tita(her sister) saying that the operation went well and they were really thankful for the money that we donated.

But now...she's gone. I wasn't even able to bond with her before I left the country. I wasn't able to visit the province before leaving because I was sick. I feel really bad because we're really close when we were young. She was in her teens while I was just learning to walk. She was with me all the time when I was young. She lived with us then.

I think the last time I saw her was also the last time I visited the province which was last year, last summer. I'm just really sad. She's still young. I think she's in her late twenties/early thirties. My mom broke the news while we were in the car, on the way to the grocery to buy food for their anniversary party tomorrow. I can remember the exact conversation:

Mommy: Dadaan pala tayo sa simbahan.

Me, Eunice and Edrick: Baket po?

Mommy: Kase magtitirik tayo ng... kandila.

Me: baket? * I was nervous, waiting for her next words. I knew that there was something wrong.*

Mommy: Wala na...si..Tita Grace niyo.

We all gasped. And then fell silent for the next minutes. I was staring outside the window. I wasn't able to speak. I just can't. I don't want to think that she's..not breathing anymore. I can't even cry.

I guess I'm just devastated. I prayed for her. I know that she's happy now, because she's with God and her mom (my lola's sister). I prayed for her loved-ones as well. It's going to be tough for them, now that she's not around anymore.

I just wish that this didn't happen while I was away. I want to see her for the last time. I want to be there. But as it is, I can't.

*This was supposed to be posted last night, but because of certain circumstances, I wasn't able to. To whoever is reading this, I hope that you can include her and our family in your prayers. Thank you. *

Labels: FAMILY, HEARTBREAK, LOST, UNEXPECTED

I watched the movie last Sunday, because I was curious. Haha. I've been playing its PS2 video game for almost a month now and I love it, even though it's really giving me bad headaches. So, one day, when I wasn't doing anything, I thought of watching the movie. And, it actually made me cry, especially at the last part. The part where the title card with the quote above was shown. I never knew that an animated movie would hit me hard. I was actually expecting its message to be more family-related. Well, I guess it is. But, it touched me in every way.

It made me feel guilty. I don't know why. Maybe because I knew that it was meant for me?But, whatever it is, I'm sure this wasn't a coincidence. After all, everything happens with and for a reason.

Anyway, I actually forgot the reason why I am writing this. All I'm saying is, I guess I'm just tired of this, and I really can't find the reasons why I'm hanging on, so I guess I'm just going to let it go. Why prolong the agony? Besides, I don't want this to ruin my life. Again.

I just really hope that this will be the last time that I'll be dealing with this. Like what Walt Disney said, we don't look backwards for very long. I guess that the whole movie was my cue.
And that actually made me smile. It gave me a spark of hope that maybe it's okay after all, that I'd be okay. Happiness is a choice after all. :) How can I not be happy with my life right now? I have every reason to. For one, I'm with my family. I have friends who still show and make me feel that they care even if we're thousands of miles apart. And that's enough, for now. :)

Labels: FEELINGS, HAPPINESS, LOVE, SUMMER, UNEXPECTED

Goodbye, Francis Magalona. :(

You will be missed. You have lived a great life. And you will be remembered forever.

Labels: HEARTBREAK, LOST, UNEXPECTED

"You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test.

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth.

He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself."


..perfect. Just perfect. I'm keeping my mouth shut. Some things are better off unsaid. You wouldn't want to hear this anyway.

Lyrics from Thinking of You by Katy Perry.

Labels: UNEXPECTED