NO MORE ENCORE.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009 5:35 PM
Around here, however, we don't look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors, and doing new
things, because we're curious... and curiousity keeps leading us down new
paths.- Walt Disney, from the movie, Meet the Robinsons
I watched the movie last Sunday, because I was curious. Haha. I've been playing its PS2 video game for almost a month now and I love it, even though it's really giving me bad headaches. So, one day, when I wasn't doing anything, I thought of watching the movie. And, it actually made me cry, especially at the last part. The part where the title card with the quote above was shown. I never knew that an animated movie would hit me hard. I was actually expecting its message to be more family-related. Well, I guess it is. But, it touched me in every way.
It made me feel guilty. I don't know why. Maybe because I knew that it was meant for me?But, whatever it is, I'm sure this wasn't a coincidence. After all, everything happens with and for a reason.
Anyway, I actually forgot the reason why I am writing this. All I'm saying is, I guess I'm just tired of this, and I really can't find the reasons why I'm hanging on, so I guess I'm just going to let it go. Why prolong the agony? Besides, I don't want this to ruin my life. Again.
I just really hope that this will be the last time that I'll be dealing with this. Like what Walt Disney said, we don't look backwards for very long. I guess that the whole movie was my cue.
And that actually made me smile. It gave me a spark of hope that maybe it's okay after all, that I'd be okay. Happiness is a choice after all. :) How can I not be happy with my life right now? I have every reason to. For one, I'm with my family. I have friends who still show and make me feel that they care even if we're thousands of miles apart. And that's enough, for now. :)
Let it go.
Let it roll right off your shoulder.
Don't you know?
The hardest part is over.
Let it in,Let your clarity define you.
In the end, we will only just remember how it feels.
-Rob Thomas; Little Wonders
Yes, I will always remember how it feels. Nothing will change the way I remember it.
But, hopefully, it won't break me anymore. :)
Labels: FEELINGS, HAPPINESS, LOVE, SUMMER, UNEXPECTED
4344 miles.
Sunday, May 3, 2009 10:56 PM
That's how far apart we are.
It's been a week since I moved here, and so far, things are doing good. I think that explains my 2 week or so absence from my blog. The last two weeks of my stay in the Philippines was dedicated to my despedida party planning and bonding with my family and some of my friends. I was out almost everyday going to UST, St. Paul and Don Bosco to apply for documents needed for our transfer. If I'm not waiting in line at the registrar's office, you could find me in various dressing rooms looking for the perfect dress to wear to my party.
Whew. Those weeks were both hectic and memorable. I was only able to pack my things hours before our flight, after Bel and Es went home. I didn't get much sleep that week, but it was all worth it when I saw the faces of my friends and family after they have seen the surprises I have made for them. You see, I really don't know how I would say goodbye. But, I think the way things went, I was able to do so.
I'm gonna miss everyone. I am missing everyone. I never said that it would be easy. Believe me, I know. But, it doesn't mean that I am going back. Not yet.
Someonce told me to find my destiny, and I am going to find it, wherever it may be.
P.S As you can see, I'm not in the mood to blog. The heat is sucking my creativity. But, I would post something more sensible than this. Soon, I hope.
Labels: LIFE, STARTING OVER, SUMMER
GUESS WHO'S BACK.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 9:36 PM
Oh, Plurk. I've missed you. :)
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Sunday, April 12, 2009 4:48 PM
I am expecting this week to be more busy for me. My mom's coming home next week. And that means that I only have a couple of days left here in the Philippines. I can't believe it. I'm excited but sad, anxious, and scared all at the same time. Of course. It would be selfish of me if I won't feel sad about this whole thing. Though, it was my decision in the first place. No one forced me to do this. I, too, was surprised with my own decision. I never thought that it would cross my mind. But, it did. And even up to now, I am in awe.
I never could explain why I made it. I could, but not in the way that people will understand immediately. I tried, but it wasn't as strong as to how I explained it to my closest friends. And everytime, someone would ask, I would simply say that it's because of my family. I never told them the other reason, because I think that it would be more understandable. And of course, it's easier than any other explanation.
There was a part of me that didn't want to make a big production out of my departure. I simply wanted to leave without saying goodbye. But then again, that would be so selfish. And besides, I can not deny the fact that I would miss everyone. I mean it, everyone. That's what the party is for. To say goodbye.
It's the least I could do, for myself and for those who care about me. I guess I owe them that, maybe even more. And I owe myself as well. Even though, I suck at goodbyes, I would still try my best to do that. Obviously, I don't have a clue on how to. I've been thinking about what words to say and I'm coming up with nothing.
How could you say goodbye to the people you love? How do you leave?
You can't simply board a plane and then tell everyone that you're a thousand miles away, and you don't know if and when you are coming back. That would be the most cruel thing ever.
I'm not that kind of person. I also hate it when people just leave without even explaining or saying goodbye. Hate would be an understatement, but I can't think of another word.
I just don't know what to say, and that is making me really frustrated. I have exactly two weeks to do everything, so I better think fast. But, there's this part of me that wants to just leave it to the exact moment. Maybe it's better if it's an extemporaneous speech rather than a prepared one.
Anyway, I've been having party jitters. I have twelve days left and up until now, there are only about 15 people who have confirmed that they are coming to the party. All in all, plus my relatives, that would be 32 guests. I invited, to be exact, 56 people. It's driving me mad. I want everyone to be there. I can only hope and pray that everything would be okay. I hate feeling anxious.
I've been waiting for this since the day I've decided that this was for the best. And even if it's not, I'm still glad I did.
And you told me that I can let go of the pain, and I am..I will.
..I'm leaving it.
Labels: FAMILY, FEELINGS, FRIENDS, LIFE, SUMMER
Conclusion
Tuesday, April 7, 2009 9:05 PM
I grabbed this from xstuckintraffic. I was bored and this looks like fun, so I went for it. Haha. God bless my soul, and yours too. :) I can't believe that it took me an hour to answer all 12 questions. :)) Anyway,1. Answer each of the questions below using Flickr Search.
2. Choose a photo from the first three pages.
3. Copy the URL of your favorite photo into this site: http://bighugelabs.com/flickr/mosaic.php.
4. Then share with the world.
Questions:
1. First Name
2. Favorite Food
3. Hometown
4. Favorite Color
5. Celebrity Crush
6. Favorite Drink
7. Dream Vacation
8. Favorite Dessert
9. What I Want To Be When I Grow Up
10. What I Love Most In The World
11. One Word That Describes Me
12. My LiveJournal Name
1. Eura 2. Cheesecake 3. Manila 4. Dark Blue 5. Chace Crawford 6. Starbucks Java Chip 7. Get my skin tanned in Corniche, Abu Dhabi 8. Cupcakes 9. Nina Garcia 10. Music 11. Free Spirit 12. Yes, I do have a LiveJournal Account. But, it's a private one, so I'm not going to post it here. :)
Hypothesis
Monday, April 6, 2009 5:31 PM
I miss it here. I haven't written anything since the last one, simply because there's nothing new. I guess I'm just enjoying the summer. I don't have the time to think about other things. Plus, debut/despedida party planning is sucking my time. Hah. Yeah, right. *sarcasmBut, I know I will write soon enough. I've been meaning to write something worth reading. I guess, I failed.
Aside from the lack of time, I'm not yet in the mood to write. My own thoughts are overwhelming me. I don't know what to write first.
Poor brain.
translate: I wanna go home.
BREATHING
Tuesday, March 31, 2009 11:55 AM
This is what I have been up to for the last 5 months.
Taking breaths to live. But not really, living to take breaths.
Get it?
But, let's be thankful. At least, it kept me alive.
I think I'll get an award for breathing.
I'm already an expert, you know.
Let's see how long I would be an expert at this.
And let's see who will be brave enough to take it away.
BORING
Monday, March 30, 2009 5:53 PM
Yes, my love, summer, is actually boring me right now. To bits. To tantrums. To death. :/I.am.actually.missing.school. Grr.I hate to say it out loud. I miss my school. What I don't miss is going to class. There's a big difference, you know. :P
Anyway, I'm pretty much bored with life these days. Though, I know that I have a lot of things to do, that I should be, in fact doing now, or else I wouldn't be able to leave. I'm just so lazy right now. I so hate myself.
Eh kase naman po, anong oras ka na gumising, tas tamad ka pa humingi ng pera, pano ka makakaalis?tas magrereklamo kang bored ka na. ewan ko sayo.
Okay, fine. My fault. I know.
Me choice ka naman. Ewan ko ba sayo. Ang tagal mo ng hinihintay na makauwi dahil me mga gusto kang gawin, pero di mo naman ginagawa.
Okay po. Sorry na talaga. :(
Ay nako, Eura Mae. Bahala ka na nga. Wala kang mararating. Malamang, kase hindi ka naman umaalis. At hindi ka naman gumagawa ng paraan para gawin ung mga gusto/kelangan mong gawin.
Pagalitan ba ang sarili sa blog? :)) Okay, I really am losing my mind.
Matagal na no. Bilisan mo na kase. Hindi ka hihintayin ng mundo no. Kala mo naman. Tyaka, diba ikaw ang me ayaw ng naghihintay? Tsk. Para sayo din naman yan.
Oo na, wala na ring saysay tong entry na to. Gusto kong bumalik sa kung paano ako magblog dati. Ung taglish.weh. ewan. Mas feel ko lang un ngayon.
Ang dami mong gusto, wala ka namang ginagawa. Tamaaaad.
Tama na please. :/
Eh kung matulog ka na kaya, para maaga ka magising bukas, para maabutan mo ung tita mo, para makahingi ka ng pera. Hindi mo naman pwedeng hintayin ung padala ng mommy mo, kase sa Friday pa un. At wala ka na talagang oras.
Oo na. Eto na nga eh. Okay, mukha siguro akong baliw sa mga ginagawa ko ngayon. Pero kung ito ba ang paraan, para lang mabalik ako sa dati, eh papatulan ko na. Sorry sa makakabasa. Tumawa ka na lang.
O sige na, baka magsalita pa ulet ung konsensya ko. Goodnight! :)
Song for the day: Rescue-American Hi-Fi
You don't know how I get in the summer.
Saturday, March 28, 2009 12:49 PM
This is my most-awaited time of the year, next to my birthday. :P Ahh..Who would not love summer? Seriously, what's not to love? I know all of you are as eager as I am for this season to start. So, today marks the first of my summer, and the first of the last summer that I would be spending here in the Philippines. So, this should be the best summer ever. :)
I finally had the drive to make a new blog layout. haha. :) I was getting tired of the old one, and it didn't give me the motivation to write anymore. So, I changed it. :) The pictures are from my first shoot this summer. ;)
I am seriously running out of things to blog about.haha. :)) This is so randooom, I know. :) But, one thing's for sure, I wouldn't let anything or anyone ruin my summer. I sure will beat the hell out of you. :P
I would spend this time by discovering and reinventing myself. And oh, I would be spending a lot of time with my family too! :) Summer love? Well, we'll see. I'll keep you posted. Hopefully, Blogger's not banned in the UAE. :)
Have a happy summer! :)
Labels: FAMILY, LIFE, LOVE, RANDOM, SUMMER
