Take a bow.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009 9:33 PM
I thought it would take me long to decide whether I would move or not. I will surely miss it here. I don't know when or if I'm still coming back.
Seven months of both good and bad memories here will forever be in my heart and mind. :)

Like my friends, it was a witness to my life, how I'd grown during those heart-breaking moments I have shared with you through this site. I owe a lot to this blog, because I know that if it were a person, it would most probably be screaming at me the whole time. Thank you blog, for your patience. :) Though I know that you didn't have a choice. ;) I love you.

As for my friends who know about this blog, those people who I have met in the blogoshere, and those of you who share the same passion, I would miss you as well. Moving feels like cutting our connection. But, don't worry, I would still be visiting your blogs and reading your stories. My tagboard is still active. I would still read the messages that you will leave. :)

But, right now, I'm on hiatus. Goodbye. ;)

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6:06 PM
there's something wrong and I can't fix it.
the blogskin is just messed up. well, here in my laptop.
whenever i use the other laptop, it seems fine.
i don't know what's wrong. i hate it.
and if it's still not fixed..


I love you, goodbye.
Thursday, May 28, 2009 12:23 AM
What would you do, if someone you really love, passed away while you were halfway around the world?

One of my closest titas, passed away today. And up to now, I don't know the exact cause of her death. We were just told that she died because of a terrible sickness. I'm not sure, though I know that it has something to do with her heart. I knew that. Before we left for Abu Dhabi, I remember reading one of her text messages asking for financial help from our family because she was going to undergo surgery for her heart. And then, I remember reading another text message from my other tita(her sister) saying that the operation went well and they were really thankful for the money that we donated.

But now...she's gone. I wasn't even able to bond with her before I left the country. I wasn't able to visit the province before leaving because I was sick. I feel really bad because we're really close when we were young. She was in her teens while I was just learning to walk. She was with me all the time when I was young. She lived with us then.

I think the last time I saw her was also the last time I visited the province which was last year, last summer. I'm just really sad. She's still young. I think she's in her late twenties/early thirties. My mom broke the news while we were in the car, on the way to the grocery to buy food for their anniversary party tomorrow. I can remember the exact conversation:

Mommy: Dadaan pala tayo sa simbahan.

Me, Eunice and Edrick: Baket po?

Mommy: Kase magtitirik tayo ng... kandila.

Me: baket? * I was nervous, waiting for her next words. I knew that there was something wrong.*

Mommy: Wala na...si..Tita Grace niyo.

We all gasped. And then fell silent for the next minutes. I was staring outside the window. I wasn't able to speak. I just can't. I don't want to think that she's..not breathing anymore. I can't even cry.

I guess I'm just devastated. I prayed for her. I know that she's happy now, because she's with God and her mom (my lola's sister). I prayed for her loved-ones as well. It's going to be tough for them, now that she's not around anymore.

I just wish that this didn't happen while I was away. I want to see her for the last time. I want to be there. But as it is, I can't.

*This was supposed to be posted last night, but because of certain circumstances, I wasn't able to. To whoever is reading this, I hope that you can include her and our family in your prayers. Thank you. *

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