Everyone has told me, including my mom, to stop looking back and just let it go. Let her go. Have I stayed away long enough not to get hurt again? Just when I thought I have, I haven't. There's still a little part of me that doesn't want to do that no matter how many times they have been telling me to let go..even for a while. I just can't. Not now. Not when I have to leave in a few months, without knowing when I'll be back here again.

I can't leave things here like that. I have to know that it's okay. That I'm okay. That We're okay. That we can be friends again. I have, well, I want to know that she still cares for me. AS FRIENDS. No more, no less, because I still do. I care for her. I owe her a lot. She has to know that I'm thankful for everything that happened. If it weren't for that, I wouldn't know what I'm really missing, what I truly need.

I'm not saying that I have moved on already. I've accepted the fact that things can't go back to the way they were. If I were to choose, I would choose the present because I'm happy, wait scratch that, I'm fulfilled. But, I think I would be happier if everything's okay. Or at least, on the way to being okay.

I can't ler her go not because I still love her that way, or I'm still hoping that we can be together again, but because I don't want to lose a friend. I want us to be friends, because we started out that way. The past 2 years that we were together, we were also able to develop that friendship, somehow. We were like, more than bestfriends but less than lovers, even though we're really together.

As much as I'm happy now, at the end of every day, I can't help but wish that she's one of those people that I've spent that day with, may it be good or bad. I miss her. I miss her company. I miss hanging out. I miss our tandem. She's one of the people who have made a difference in my life. I hope she knows that.

So tell me, how will I let go? I feel like a soul with an unfinished business. I hope that I'll be able to figure this out before time runs out.

Labels: LOST

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Everyone has told me, including my mom, to stop looking back and just let it go. Let her go. Have I stayed away long enough not to get hurt again? Just when I thought I have, I haven't. There's still a little part of me that doesn't want to do that no matter how many times they have been telling me to let go..even for a while. I just can't. Not now. Not when I have to leave in a few months, without knowing when I'll be back here again.

I can't leave things here like that. I have to know that it's okay. That I'm okay. That We're okay. That we can be friends again. I have, well, I want to know that she still cares for me. AS FRIENDS. No more, no less, because I still do. I care for her. I owe her a lot. She has to know that I'm thankful for everything that happened. If it weren't for that, I wouldn't know what I'm really missing, what I truly need.

I'm not saying that I have moved on already. I've accepted the fact that things can't go back to the way they were. If I were to choose, I would choose the present because I'm happy, wait scratch that, I'm fulfilled. But, I think I would be happier if everything's okay. Or at least, on the way to being okay.

I can't ler her go not because I still love her that way, or I'm still hoping that we can be together again, but because I don't want to lose a friend. I want us to be friends, because we started out that way. The past 2 years that we were together, we were also able to develop that friendship, somehow. We were like, more than bestfriends but less than lovers, even though we're really together.

As much as I'm happy now, at the end of every day, I can't help but wish that she's one of those people that I've spent that day with, may it be good or bad. I miss her. I miss her company. I miss hanging out. I miss our tandem. She's one of the people who have made a difference in my life. I hope she knows that.

So tell me, how will I let go? I feel like a soul with an unfinished business. I hope that I'll be able to figure this out before time runs out.

Labels: LOST