Stepping up.
Saturday, November 1, 2008 6:15 PM
"It's not about what you got. It's what you make of what you got."
-Andie West;Step Up 2: The Streets

I watched Step Up 2 last night because I was really bored. It was the 3rd time I watched it. The first time was last September 10--my birthday, btw. I wasn't paying attention to the movie quotes back then, I was too preoccupied with their dance moves. haha. That's why when I heard this one, I searched for it on the Internet to get the exact quote and found a lot of really inspiring quotes from the movie but this one struck me the most.


Anyway, when I was in gradeschool[4th grade, to be exact], I remembered someone asking me what course I want to take up in college and which school I want to go to. Well, for a 10-year old girl, that question is difficult to answer. First of all, I'm way too young to have a specific course in mind, and what do I know about those universities? But, surprisingly, I answered, "Fine Arts po, sa UST." Funny, isn't it?

Upon hearing this, my parents didn't take it seriously because they thought that I was young to decide and that I might still change my mind. Besides, college was still far far away from my innocent world. I know that they wanted me to be an engineer or an accountant like them. They would always tell me that. Don't get me wrong, they don't have anything against the course, it's just that they wanted me to be like them. They wanted me to live their dream.

Seven years later, here I am, cramming for plates and other school requirements, enrolled as a Freshman in the Royal, Pontifical and Catholic University of Sto. Tomas taking up Fine Arts-Advertising Major. So, maybe you're wondering what happened to the my-parents-wanted-me-to-become-like-them story huh? Well, it was quite a war between my parents and I. When I reached the age of reason, I told them that I wanted to be an artist. They kept on persuading me to take up BS Math, Accountancy or Engineering. But, I told them that I don't want that. They tried and tried, but failed everytime they did. They knew that the battle was lost before it even started.

I chose to take up Fine Arts because that was where I was good at. I may not be the best drawing artist out there, but I know that I can be one of the best in this career. I thought that if I go there[UST CFAD], then the people that I love will be proud of me, because finally I found the place where I belong.

All my life, I grew up thinking that I'm the best or at least, one of them. But, when I reached a certain point in my life, I found out that I wasn't who I think I was. I found out that there are a lot of people who are better than me in those things that I thought I was best. I tried to keep up with them. I tried to BE like them because I thought that if I do, then I would still be one of the best. But I got tired, and I realized that it's not doing me good. It's just making me forget who I am. So, I gave up.

From then on, whenever an opportunity for me to show my talents and other capabilites comes, I would let those opportunities pass, because I kept on thinking that there are other people who are good at that, and that they don't need someone like me. And because of that, I wasn't able to develop my talents. Scratch that. I STOPPED DEVELOPING MY TALENTS.

I thought that if I take up Fine Arts, I will be better than those people who are better than me in my other talents. But wait, I was wrong. There are other people who are better than me in this course..again. Of course, there will always be. There are billions of people in the world. Someone once told me that I can never be the best in what I do because there will always be other people who are better than me. So, what should I do?I was crushed. I was hurt.My self-esteem went down six feet under.

I can't really do anything about it but try. Try to be good at what I do. Life should go on, and that goes the same for learning. Life is a game because like a normal game, you have to learn the rules and strategies to win. It takes a lot of practice, but once you learn it, you can always win the game. And right now, I have to learn the fundamentals and then practice until I become good at it. Then use what I learned to be better.

The things that happened in my life made me forget the REAL purpose of school. And what is that? TO LEARN. I forgot that I go to school because I want to learn, and not to be best at something. If I was the best before I went to school, then there's no reason for me to go, right? My parents send me to school because they want me to LEARN TO BE THE BEST. And that's what school is for. If you can't be the best, at least you learned a lot of things. And when you learn it, live it, and then love it.

I will end this entry with another quote from the movie.

"Do not give up. Just be you, because LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE ANYBODY ELSE."
-Andie West;Step Up 2: The Streets

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